angry

hey I feel inspire again to tell a story this time

I want to create a character dreaming of becoming something, and then denying humanity to conquer the dream, dedicates his life to achieving it, When he finally achieving it, he witnesses the end of the something else!
Sometimes the paths to our goals lead to unexpected circumstances
Despite many efforts, hardships, and strong character, things do not go as we had planned.

we all definitely had our own tiny moment of freak out when our mind is exploded or out of control.

when I was little, in elementary school, I considering a problematic child, who lose artesian and focus during class, my teacher would yell out loud my name.

Everyday when I go home, I would draw, and coloring stuff, listen to music tapes, and hangout with my pet, just to forget the bad thing that happen to me.




Sometimes the paths to your goals lead to unexpected circumstances,

A boy dreams of walking on the moon. Despite his many efforts, hardships, and his strong character, things do not go as he had planned. 

The boy runs after his dream and ignore life.
Get it and see earth ka-boom.
Here could be "the end" but not, they top that it with "men let's play-station" escape...

we all have been here, control the angry, or prove how tough we are.
we definitely had our own tiny moment of freak out when the life is exploded.

A character dreaming of becoming something that's great, denying humanity to conquer space or dream, dedicates his life to achieving his goal. When he finally lands on the moon he witnesses the end of the Earth!

A tragic odyssey that follows one very determined man as he pursues his childhood dream to be an astronaut. Normally, odysseys conclude with a triumphant voyage home. Not so in this case.

All these things I need to know

I'll clear my dusty throat 

From all the ashes that I've choked 

From all the bridges that I've burned. 

I'm under this cloud. 

And doubt, it turns me inside out 

And I just can't seem to let it go.

Who will be there waiting 

Now that I can finally reach the light?

Or will the darkness take me 

Now that I can't make it through the night?

Divine is a long road. 

At least that's what I've been told. 

But I don't have the mind to go. 

Am I here for something? 

Or is this all for nothing? 

It's all these things I need to know.

Who will be there waiting 

Now that I can finally reach the light?

Or will the darkness take me 

Now that I can't make it through the night?

By Completely From Mountains

http://completelyfrommountains.bandcamp.com/album/stillborn

fighting against darkness

I feel your fear growing, you would be dead soon, when you gone, I am going to destroy everything you love, you family, your dream will be no more, your entire  will wiped out, because you, were afraid.

In brightest day, in blackest night, no evil shall escape my sight, let those who worship evil's might, beware my power.

you think you can't help yourself against all this.

this is just all bad dreams, I can protect myself

still think there is no such thing as fear

Competition is darkness within the practice.

maybe country compete is a good thing.

remember where I start motion design, because of grass jelly. if there are more grass jelly I would start motion design earlier.

you can never count on something forever, you got find what interest things happen in your life story, and stick with it, that's the only way that not to let your inspiration and passion fade away.

the more you laugh the more inspire you get, but laugh also takes different levels.

Better to travel alone than in bad company

Last night someone ask me where could I like to go see sunset. I told him roof top! a few days later, I automatically thinking about the a movie I watched long time ago, call Thirst. At the end the two vampire lover holding hands together sitting on a car on a cliff edge waiting for Sun rise, and then they both get burn together until their ash is gone.

they win I guess even they die, if you think you win, you be free to go to the next level, that's the system that never change in competition for everything.

and that's the right kind of emotion for guys I think, Even though we die, against sun was the biggest and bravest things we done, because together our love is strong than anything. no shame, no edge, no broken heart, no gain or lose, just facing it, with brutal fact, holding the hands together.

we can't explain what is changing inside of us, looking forward to future is only thing we look forward most.

I am not afraid

Yesterday my thought clicked after remember what kind of story I been through, I am not proud of it, but I can't let that feeling fade alway, it generate a scar in my brain already, you can say it's about activate the unknown substance in your DNA system, but I would say don't mess with that scar, just believe it could heal if you don't think about too much, because it gets ugly if you look much into it.

Last night, I can't help to fall for the story when I was watching IP man, there is something about fighting as dancing, you just can't hide the body language in films, good audience can tell.

Anyway it's 4 AM I have to go to bed. In the bed, I feel the scar opened again, I feel brave, but not completely fearless. once again I question myself what would I left if today is my last day to live

I need to generate more emotion. I hate the feeling of duplicating, because the lack of emotion.

however I hate to bring hate, and darkness in my work too, it made me forget I am still a boy sometimes, because making art doesn't not require me to become a man, and that's when politic comes.

remember your story, that's the main source of your emotion. with that emotion inside, you can finish what you started it beginning in time.